Went to JJs funeral today.
Seeing Nathan standing there crying his eyes out just messed me up real bad.
I lost it.
So emotionally drained.
Goodnight.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Friday, October 5, 2012
Dear...
JJSS,
Wow. I don't know what to say. Coming home last night to find out through facebook that you are gone was just horrible. I couldn't believe it. I still am in denial.. actually. I keep going on your fb waiting for you to post something saying how this is just some sick joke but then I see all the messages that people are leaving for you... all the people you have helped and impacted... and realize that you really are gone.
Thank you. Thank you, for EVERYTHING. You probably don't even realize it.. but every single person that walks out of Sigma, comes out a changed person. Never biased. Never judgmental. I still remember all the live lessons and advice you gave me.. and I try to follow them everyday. All the time and energy you have sacrificed for your students and me have definitely impacted all of us.. I wish that I could be half the person you were. Thank you again for your endless love and support and being patient with me. I know I was difficult.
Sorry, that I never kept my promises. It was because I was embarrassed and ashamed. You encouraged me and tried your best to help me all throughout high school. Well.. I did make it though. I made it to UCLA like you wanted! I just never pulled through. I felt like I failed you and compared to my cousin and sm, I'm just going on a different path... a more unconventional path.. and YOU out of all people are the epitome of unconventional haha. I'm sure you understand! I avoided you because... I thought that there would be a time... where I would just waltz into your office and brag to you about all the things I have accomplished and then I would take you out for some jjajjangmyun and you can tell me about all your new students and how much you miss the one and only tag team... but I guess I can't do that now.
Last few things I must remind you of..
You were supposed to sing at my wedding! I was supposed to marry your son LOL and if that didn't work out, you were supposed to set me up with a namja! Man.. I miss your corny jokes. I'll miss all the times you made fun of my satoori and sang songs because you wanted to be a singer (I don't think I told you enough.. you really do have a great voice!). Sorry for sticking stickers of the tag teams face all over your pencil case and sabotaging your office with paper clips. Pen poop FTW and I'll never live down you telling random students that I look like Winona Ryder LOL WTF?!
You told EVERY single student to make you a legend.. but you already are one JJ.
Miss you dearly.
Rest in peace.
Wow. I don't know what to say. Coming home last night to find out through facebook that you are gone was just horrible. I couldn't believe it. I still am in denial.. actually. I keep going on your fb waiting for you to post something saying how this is just some sick joke but then I see all the messages that people are leaving for you... all the people you have helped and impacted... and realize that you really are gone.
Thank you. Thank you, for EVERYTHING. You probably don't even realize it.. but every single person that walks out of Sigma, comes out a changed person. Never biased. Never judgmental. I still remember all the live lessons and advice you gave me.. and I try to follow them everyday. All the time and energy you have sacrificed for your students and me have definitely impacted all of us.. I wish that I could be half the person you were. Thank you again for your endless love and support and being patient with me. I know I was difficult.
Sorry, that I never kept my promises. It was because I was embarrassed and ashamed. You encouraged me and tried your best to help me all throughout high school. Well.. I did make it though. I made it to UCLA like you wanted! I just never pulled through. I felt like I failed you and compared to my cousin and sm, I'm just going on a different path... a more unconventional path.. and YOU out of all people are the epitome of unconventional haha. I'm sure you understand! I avoided you because... I thought that there would be a time... where I would just waltz into your office and brag to you about all the things I have accomplished and then I would take you out for some jjajjangmyun and you can tell me about all your new students and how much you miss the one and only tag team... but I guess I can't do that now.
Last few things I must remind you of..
You were supposed to sing at my wedding! I was supposed to marry your son LOL and if that didn't work out, you were supposed to set me up with a namja! Man.. I miss your corny jokes. I'll miss all the times you made fun of my satoori and sang songs because you wanted to be a singer (I don't think I told you enough.. you really do have a great voice!). Sorry for sticking stickers of the tag teams face all over your pencil case and sabotaging your office with paper clips. Pen poop FTW and I'll never live down you telling random students that I look like Winona Ryder LOL WTF?!
You told EVERY single student to make you a legend.. but you already are one JJ.
Miss you dearly.
Rest in peace.
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